i realise i change de past few weeks.
mths mayb.
i hav been doing thng i don wan.(gd thngs tt is)
n end up feeling proud of myself.
even if i feel very tired.

i ask myself hav i ever finish cleaning de plates?
or sit down hrs wit mom n dad jus laughing n wathing tv?
now not only i did all tt.
i paint my room, i try to do most of de house work.
try to make my parents smile.
i wake up early in de morning.
for wat...
say gd bye to mom.
n make sure shahrir eat him medicine.

y was i so evil b4?
i was a slut.
i steal i lie.
i broke in n out of de hs.
i ran away twice.
i had de key to everythng.
i fought baq.(i nvr use valgue word infron my family)
i nvr listen.
i made my parent so angry till dey wan to kill me.
i made my dad beat me up for hrs even if i was use to it.
n of all ppl i pushed n scratch my mom.
as i thnk about wat i did in de past.
y was i ever created.
i shame my family.
i make shahrir so disgusted by my past actions.

shahrir culdnt forgive me.(i understand)
i noe its hard 4 my parents to forgive my sibings.
but i noe aft everthng i did dey forgive me.

i try to change but tt part of me is still der.
im greatful for my parents.
its been so long since my parents ungkit bout de past.
im oso greatful for shahrir.
frm tym to tym he remind me of how disgusting i was.
i noe it hurts him alot.
n i noe it always break his heart to thnk bout it.
u r de only guy i ever love.
n i love my parents my family.
thanks to shahrir i learn how to love my family.
n i hope 1day u will b part of it.

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